This is a continuation of thought from the first two paragraphs of the post that I wrote yesterday. If you missed reading that one, titled Cats or Dogs?; you can find it here.
Ravi Zacharias spoke live last night at John Hopkins University. By the time I found out about it, it had been over for several hours, however I was able to catch it on YouTube. He spoke for over an hour on “The Question of Suffering and the Goodness of God.” I highly recommend watching it. Afterwards there was a Q&A session which went for about 45 minutes.
In answer to one young man’s question, Ravi spoke of when he was 19 and almost committed suicide. As he lay in the hospital bed, a man came into the room and gave him a Bible and indicated that Ravi should read a portion of John 14:19, “…because I live, you also shall live.” Which his mother then read to him from the newly acquired Bible. This changed Ravi’s life completely.
Last year, Ravi had an opportunity to speak again with the man who gave him the Bible. The man told him that he felt that he had been brought into this life with the sole purpose of giving Ravi the Bible that day. This touched Ravi to the core; to the point that he admitted he had shed tears. However, Ravi was horrified that the man thought that this had been his only purpose in life. Of course, it would be hard to be on Ravi’s end of that. To think that God might send someone into this world with the sole purpose to give you a Bible on a particular day; well, it actually is pretty incredible. But then you look at what Ravi has done with his life and the more you look at him and listen to him, the more credible it becomes.
In the Bible, we know of many people who were born for one purpose. The most obvious, of course, is Mary. Her main and maybe even sole purpose on this earth was to give birth to the Messiah. Even Ravi would admit that this is the case. His problem in accepting that God could put one man on this earth with the sole purpose of handing him a Bible at the right time, stems from his own sense of unimportance. Ravi would readily agree that Jesus is worthy of someone to be born with the sole purpose to give birth to Him. Yet, Ravi does not consider himself that important. However, the people who listen to his messages are that important. The ministry that Ravi has is that important.
Growing up in a large ministry family, I was always waiting for my “calling” into the ministry. It never happened. In anguish, thinking that I was “left out” or had somehow screwed things up to the point that God had rejected me for service; I cried out to God for an answer to the question that I had been asking myself, since I had first learned to speak. “What am I supposed to do with my life?” God didn’t answer me right away; in fact it took many years.
After I gave birth to my third son, He finally answered me.
“Your job is to be the best mother that you can be.”
This was a confirmation of what I had felt in my spirit all along. The problem was that I thought that wasn’t enough. Not compared to what my brothers, parents, grandparents and great-grandparents had done with their lives.
“Yes, but what is my ministry?” I continued to ask.
“That IS your ministry,” came the response, loud and clear.
Then it hit me. If it was enough for Mary, why couldn’t it be enough for me? Did I think myself more important than her? NO! Especially, not when I thought about it in that light.
So, to follow up with the two paragraphs from my previous post; I already know the purpose of my life. Anything else that happens in my life, apart from being a mother, is a bonus.
One last thought on this subject. I believe that God makes use of all of His resources to bring help and salvation to those whose hearts are able to receive it. My main purpose is to be the best mother that I can be, that is true. He might, however, at any given time, use me to bless another. That would be a secondary purpose, however not to be considered trivial.